28 03 2005

Check this:
. Apparently the point of WebMD is to scare the LIVING SHIT out of you.
Notice at the bottom of the page where it says “You have been
experiencing mono symptoms, particularly for longer than
10 days, or if you have a severe sore throat for more than a day or
two; you need to be examined by a doctor to rule out other illnesses,
such as strep throat or — less likely — leukemia or infectious

Doctor: Hmmmm… you may have strep throat….
Me: Oh, phew. I thought it was serious.
D: On second thought, this could be blood cancer… like leukemia.
M: WHAT!?!?
D: Oh wait. It’s mono.

The line after says swollen lymph nodes are a sign of tuberculosis,
cancer or HIV. Christ! Imagine some old person searching their symptoms
online and seeing this! My grandpa thinks he has all sorts of stuff all
the time because doctors mention what something could be. The have to
be riders on these kinds of things.

That is all.

Fuck sickness

17 03 2005

Wow. This is fuckin’ awesome. On the eve of Jamaica fun ‘n’ sun, I come to find out I have mono. Well, see you all when I get back… IF I get back…


16 03 2005

…sick. And to boot, I burnt myself tanning. Only took me two tries! FUCK!

Uf dah…

11 03 2005

Man. I just found out we’re leaving for Jamaica at 6am from Chicago.
That’ll be a bitch, but at least we’ll be in sunny-happy-land by noon.

My crushes keep piling up. I have a couple at work and now I think I’m
in love with the girl at the coffee shop. Too much. I would act on at
least one of these if I wasn’t so busy with SO MUCH SHIT. Jeez.

Band: Mason Jennings

Sound: At this point, I find it hard to believe not everyone has heard
of Mason yet. I guess that’s because I’ve been into him for nearly
three years now. His career took off around the late 90s when he hit
the Minnesota music scene. He moved there after realizing Cali can be a
tough place to survive. His sound is like a modern folk. He mixes
acoustic and electric with his drummer and bass. Bassist Chris
Morrissey (upright and electric bass) and drummer Brian McLeod lend a
lot to his music and make him stand out. Some songs have a lot of
energy and some are slow and mellow. Most of them have great,
dream-like lyrics about New York, California, Duluth and home. His
voice is probably the signature of the band. It makes him sound like
your friend right away, and sometimes it can be so sad.

Songs: A LOT of songs, especially the ones off the new album, are free to hear at
Darkness Between Fireflies is my favorite; Bullet; California;
California Part II; Ulysses; Black Panther; Duluth; Summer Dress; New
York City

the dead flag blues

the car’s on fire and there’s no driver at the wheel
and the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
and a dark wind blows
the government is corrupt
and we’re on so many drugs
with the radio on and the curtains drawn

we’re trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
and the machine is bleeding to death

the sun has fallen down
and the billboards are all leering
and the flags are all dead at the top of their poles

it went like this:

the buildings tumbled in on themselves
mothers clutching babies picked through the rubble
and pulled out their hair

the skyline was beautiful on fire
all twisted metal stretching upwards
everything washed in a thin orange haze

i said: “kiss me, you’re beautiful —
these are truly the last days”

you grabbed my hand and we fell into it like a daydream or a fever

we woke up one morning and fell a little further down —
for sure it’s the valley of death

i open up my wallet and it’s full of blood


7 03 2005

I’m approaching 11 hours without food, and I’m really thinking about what another 61 will do to me. I have plans to power skate, train Tae Kwon Do and play a hockey game tomorrow, and I’m unsure of what that means to my body.

Right now, hunger is minimal, but I’m really feeling the effects of no caffeine and NO added energy from food. I’m ready to sleep at 10:38, and I’m thinking I might do just that and work on homework tomorrow morning instead.

If you missed the last post, I’m hunger striking against rising tuition. Apparently there are many others fasting with me, but I haven’t seen them because I’ve been too busy to head up to the capitol.

I just saw Al Sharpton speak about three hours ago, and he was really inspiring. He congratulated all of us on fasting and said he knew how tough it was because he’s done it before. He also made the point that, though people may say that being hungry won’t chage anything, that’s not what it’s about. What we’re doing is calling attention to the problem. He added that just calling up a newspaper and telling them that tuition’s going up won’t mean a thing and won’t get our message heard. We need to act and show our committment toward these kinds of things.

Lately, I’ve been dwelling on the whole political activism thing, and wondering how I’m doing in relation to society and if I’m making a difference. When I look back, I see that, no, I haven’t really made a difference… yet. This hunger strike is the first COMMITTED activist motion I’ve ever made. Sure, I’ve marched in the harvest fest parade in favor of legalizing medicinal marijuana, I’ve gone to the biggest political rally I’ve ever seen for Kerry and I stay active by seeing speakers like Sharpton.

Unfortunately, that’s not enough. That’s why I admired grassroots organizations on campus, political activist students and even the guys that stand on Library Mall preaching. It takes balls to stand up for a cause and be heard.

Sharpton said that the most memorable moment in his campaign was speaking at the Democratic National Convention. He said that he made the decision to go out there and ream Bush, regardless of what people had to say. The risk, to him, was that he would either get heckled of stage or he would be cheered on. Either way, he said he would be the only one who had to deal with himself when he went home.

When he spoke at the DNC, Sharpton got more than ten standing ovations. The pride he felt in taking the risk and being heard made it his best moment on the campaign trail.

It makes me see more about why I need to be active here. Both Sharpton and another distinguished lecturer at UW, Sister Helen Prejean (author of Dead Man Walking) spoke about apathy. They addressed the students and let us know that to do nothing is a far greater sin than to act against the status quo.

The fact that apathy is an underlying theme in several speeches given at Madison saddens me. It means that college-aged students across the country are losing their reputation as thinkers, questioners and revolutionaries.

In the seventies, students protested the Viet Nam war in droves. Now, I rarely see groups on campus doing things against the war… and I mean SEE groups, not just read about small anti-war meetings in the paper.

The problem becomes more apparent when I see that half of high school students said papers should have governmental approval before running a story. 17% thought that the first amendment guaranteed TOO MANY rights to citizens.

In a similar situation, when I announced my plans to see Al Sharpton speak to my fraternity brothers, at least three people of the 40-or-so there asked, “Who’s Al Sharpton?”

This is our nation’s future, and it’s up to us to fix it.

Only because everyone else from back home is doing it…

7 03 2005

If you read this…
You must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
It can be good or bad.
Just so long as it happened.

Then post this to your journal.
See what people remember about you.

Life as I know it

7 03 2005


DELIGHTED to find that Johnny Depp, Benicio del Toro, Russel Crowe, Don Cheadle and Jim Carrey made GQs “The Greatest Actors of Our Generation” list.

UNSURE how I feel about Leo DiCaprio and Nick Cage making said list.

WONDERING who Clive Owen, John C. Reilly and Gael Garcia Bernal (the other three on the list) are.

ANTICIPATING going to Jamaica in two weeks.

ANXIOUS about the ramifications of my hunger strike tomorrow protesting Gov. Doyle’s proposed budget and his lack of concern for UW schools. I start fasting at 10am and am SUPPOSED to go until Thursday at 10am. My goal is to last at least a day.

WORRIED how I’ll do during an interview for teaching sailing for Hoofers this summer.

PISSED that training for the job (if I got it) TOTALLY overlaps my Tae Kwon Do belt test.

SICK of trying to study and not doing it.

READY to finally try my hand at getting the features column spot on the Daily Cardinal.

SET to study.

GOing away from the computer now.


4 03 2005

Band: Pinback
Sound: Very mellow. They have a distinct sound. The guitar is a plucky tone, though sometimes it sounds like a steel drum and sometimes it’s acoustic. The lyrics flow well, and the bass runs a few of the songs. There’s a little sampling, a little synth and a couple looped drum beats, which adds just the right touch.
Songs: AFK (once again, check the video at the featured clips section of the Touch and Go/ Quarter Stick Records website –; Fortress; Penelope; Seville; Boo – this song has some great flowing lyrics and a kind of odd, spooky melody.

Also, I’ve decided I’m going to make an mp3 disc of all my fave songs, available either for free (provided a blank disc) or for trade with an equally awesome CD. Someone needs to commission me to do it first, so keep checking these bands out, let me know when you’re ready, then I’ll EXPOSE you! … to new music. Seriously, this stuff is good.

Oh, and reply to this when you read this so I know it’s not all in vain.

Scary Stuff and more

1 03 2005

Dan Savage recently reported some scary new findings about STDs.

One is a new strain of HIV that doesn’t seem to respond to any of the anti-retroviral medications used to treat other HIV patients and suppress their HIV. It also seems to rapidly progress to “full-blown” AIDS. He said that the first man to report it said he had sex with hundreds of men while doing crystal meth over somehting like a two week period.

The other is a new form of chlamydia called lymphogranuloma venereum or LGV for short. “Symptoms of LGV include a painful, bloody rectal infection, genital ulcers, and exploding lymph nodes in the groin.” It is apparently spread through unprotected anal sex and has infected six men in the US as of the printing of the column.

Sometimes I wonder why we’re such idiots. We in America actually have access to condoms, safe sex programs and the medecine to treat some nasty thngs, yet we still fuck up so much. Just because we’re idiots then, people in disease-stricken countries have to deal with an AIDS epedemic entirely unrelated to us, and they have NO real knowledge of how the disease works. They don’t get enough condoms, they don’t get the right education, and they have no money to fight even the simplest of disease. We truly are a nation of ignorance and privelege.

On other topics, I may try for the features columnist position with the Cardinal. On the rare chance that I actually GET the position, I’ll try to fit all the friends of mine into my columns to make them feel popular. If nothing else, everyone will have a peek at personal life once a week. YAY!

I ‘m also going to try to profile bands I’ve recently found once per post, so here’s today’s band.

Band: TV on the Radio
Sound: Think Marvin Gaye with a little funk and a smidge of electronic. These songs are for seduction and relaxation.
Songs: Staring at the Sun (check the video at; Wear You Out – Think about that girl or guy at the bar that you’re determined to get no matter what. That’s what this songs about. Perhaps my new favorite song for “lovin.”